They sleep in the next day since it’s a Saturday and waking up with Jongin in his arms, the younger snoring softly with his almost naked body tangled in the sheets, definitely is a sight Kyungsoo could get used to.
Jongin hums happily when Kyungsoo cards his fingers through his hair, snuggling into Kyungsoo’s chest while mumbling "Hyung” against his skin. He tries to pull away without waking him up but Jongin just wraps his arms around his waist, shaking his head. “Stay a little longer.” He mumbles, pressing soft kisses against Kyungsoo’s shoulder and there’s just no way Kyungsoo could move away from him now.
Not with how soft Jongin looks, how nice he smells and how a sleepy smile adorns his face upon realizing that he made Kyungsoo stay with his gentle touches, his hands rubbing over Kyungsoo’s bare back comfortingly as he molds their chests together and continues kissing every patch of skin his lips can reach.
“Are you always this clingy in the morning?” Kyungsoo whispers. He might sound annoyed but the way his fingers comb through the younger’s hair and how his eyes are closed from the butterfly kisses pressing against his skin gives away how much he likes this.
“Not clingy. Just affectionate.”
“I want to make breakfast.”
Jongin hums. “Do you have eggs?”
“I think so.”
“Can you make me french toast?”
Kyungsoo chuckles. “If you ask nicely.”
At this, Jongin pulls away, blinking his eyes open and squinting when the light seems to hurt him. “Please?” He leans in without warning, pecking Kyungsoo’s lips in such a sweet way that he feels like he’s melting.
Yeah, he could definitely get used to this.
When he’s cleaning the table to put the dishes down on it, he spots the drawings that are still on there, the ones that Jongin tore apart a few days ago. Kyungsoo feels sad because they were such nice drawings and Jongin must’ve spent hours on a few of them, so seeing them destroyed like this is really heart breaking.
Since it’ll take some time for the rice to cook, Kyungsoo decides to try and fix a couple of the drawings as best as he can. It’s not easy because there’s only so much you can do with a little glue and tape but by the time the rice has cooked Kyungsoo has managed to put together four of the drawings.
Kyungsoo puts the rice into bowls and fries some vegetables, and when he turns around to place them on the table, Jongin is standing there, holding one of the drawings in his hands.
"Good morning.” Kyungsoo says, placing the plates on the table.
Jongin looks up from his drawing. "You didn’t have to do this.”
"Uhm. I wanted to. Should I not have?”
Jongin just shakes his head and steps closer, cupping Kyungsoo’s face and giving him a kiss that shakes Kyungsoo to the core of his bones. "Thank you.”
Kyungsoo gets a text from Joohyun during breakfast, asking them to come over for dinner tonight. "Joohyun asks what your favorite food is.”
The younger tilts his head at him, speaking through a mouthful. "Why?”
"She wants to cook for you. To say thank you for what you did.”
"She doesn’t have to.” Jongin sighs. "But she should know by now that I basically eat anything.”
Kyungsoo snorts. "Alright. I’ll tell her that.”
Joohyun sends him back a picture of Naeun pouting and making a thumbs down with her hand for giving such a lousy answer which makes him smile brightly because they braided her hair and she looks absolutely adorable.
"Why are you smiling?”
Kyungsoo turns his phone to show him the picture and Jongin smiles too upon seeing it. "She’s really lucky to have you. You love her a lot.”
"I do.”
"Please don’t hit me for this.” Jongin mumbles. "But I’ve been thinking, how nice it would be, if we could... I don’t know. Fuck, it didn’t sound as stupid in my head.”
"What?” Kyungsoo wants to know.
Jongin shrugs. "If we could adopt Naeun and Taeil. I think we’d make good parents.”
Kyungsoo looks at Jongin with wide eyes. "You mean us two...?”
Jongin nods, suddenly looking really nervous.
"But you know that’s not possible.” Kyungsoo says, his heart fluttering just because Jongin thought about them adopting children together.
Normally this would scare the shit out of Kyungsoo but he’s so happy today that he doesn’t mind talking about it at all.
"I know.” Jongin sighs and shrugs again. "I’m just saying. In a perfect world, you and me would adopt them. And we’d have like, a huge garden and cute puppies and throw lame barbecue parties with our neighbors. We’d be a happy family.”
Kyungsoo chuckles. "Yeah, in a perfect world, I think we could.”
“I really want to kiss you when you smile like that.” Jongin mumbles.
“I’m not stopping you.”
Jongin’s leans over the table to press their lips together, both of them not able to stop smiling into the kiss.
Kyungsoo doesn’t really need a perfect world.
He has his friends, he has the people at the orphanage, the kids.
He has Jongin.
And that is all he needs to be perfectly happy.
True to her words, Joohyun has prepared a dinner that has Jongin looking lovestruck upon seeing all the food on the table when they arrive.
The night is loud as always but everyone seems so much more at peace without the fear of losing the orphanage lingering at the back of their minds.
The kids are completely in love with Jongin.
They don’t stop telling him how much they love their beds and Kyungsoo feels his heart swell even more when he sees how Jongin blushes from all the attention on him. Jongin nods his head along when one of the younger boys tells him about his amazing dream that night and he reaches his hand out to hold Kyungsoo’s under the table. Kyungsoo can’t help but smile as he squeezes back and when he catches Seulgi’s eyes from across the table, she just smiles and looks happier than Kyungsoo’s ever seen her look.
After dinner, they sit in the living room while the kids are watching a movie.
The night is filled with laughter and tears because they’re talking about their memories from their time at the orphanage.
When Kyungsoo talks, he tells them about Jongin.
He tells them what they used to talk about even if Jongin was silent all the time. How Kyungsoo learned to read his eyes. How they used to sleep together in a bed to keep warm.
Jongin starts crying and no one says a word when Kyungsoo hugs him.
Later, when they’re about to go and read stories to the kids, Jongin stops him in the hallway and pulls him into another hug, this one more intimate.
“Thank you.” He whispers into his ear.
Kyungsoo presses a kiss against his temple, hoping to sooth him. “You okay?”
Jongin nods “I am. I’m okay with you.”
A few weeks ago, those words would’ve made Kyungsoo cringe, but now they only make him hold the younger closer just to show that no, he isn’t pushing him away any longer.
He’s holding on tighter than ever before.
Kyungsoo’s sitting in Naeun’s bed, just having finished reading her a story and he smiles down at the sleeping girl, putting the book away. Her head’s laying on Kyungsoo’s chest as she sleeps peacefully, looking happy and healthy and everything Kyungsoo’s ever wanted for her.
He looks up and to his right where Jongin is sitting in Taeil’s bed, the toddler once again clinging to Jongin like a Koala baby would to it’s mother, arms and legs wrapped around him as his little face is snuggled into Jongin’s chest.
Kyungsoo smiles because one of Taeil’s hands is in Jongin’s face, his fingers playing with his eyelashes and Jongin still looks mildly disturbed but mostly, he just looks completely fond with the little boy in his arms.
Their eyes meet and Kyungsoo holds his breath when Jongin smiles because it’s like watching a beautiful flower bloom.
There, in the curl of Jongin’s lips, are a few words that aren’t meant to be said out loud in that moment.
And when Kyungsoo smiles back, his heart skipping a beat, there’s a reply that also remains silent.
Because Kyungsoo learned to read Jongin’s eyes a long, long time ago.
Because sometimes a love like this doesn’t need words.
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Date: 2016-08-26 12:41 am (UTC)The story was so unbelievably beautiful.
Thank you SO much for writing this
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Date: 2016-09-11 06:43 pm (UTC)Sobbing
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Date: 2016-08-26 02:21 am (UTC)I love how here kyungsoo is so selfless when it comes to the orphanage. And i love it more how unlike others kyungsoo's impression of jongin is different and how he even feels guilty for him?? Same kyungsoo me too like jongin:(( i feel like i cant really put much here bc im feeling A LOT and this is a pretty long fic altho it really kept me to the edge, especially when jongin losses it. MAN i seriously didnt see the part where jongin got adopted coming like what???? Wait what???? I stopped reading when jongin said he was the boy in the picture with kyungsoo and i just flipped :---))) im just UGH and honestly the slow burn is 💯💯 i like how their relationship progress and how at first kyungsoo felt forced to talk to jongin for the orphanage but they talk effortlessly together and FOR HOURS im just :"")
I feel so sad for kyungsoo when apparently he doesnt even have enough money for his apartement :(( and kyungsoo's feelings about love :(( and jongin's past and stuttering :(( AND CHILD KAISOO GETTING SEPERATED STOP STOP STOP :((((((((
Bff!sesoo is so cute here and is that vivi running away from sehun??? Poor boi lmao but they're so precious together i just cant even. AND LITTLE NAEUN AND TAEIL HUHU *sobs* so pretty and precious
And kaisoo starting a family :-) adopting naeun and taeil :-) and having puppies and a house with a big garden :-) throwing lame barbeque parties with neighbours :-) my heart cant take it :-)
All and all this is so beautiful and precious i like how kyungsoo's feelings of guilt is portrayed realisticly bc i'm actually kinda like this so i can relate to him and i just kind of ＼(^o^)／ when we feel the same way about jongin and the orphanage. Im completely smitten with both kyungsoo and jongin here so i had a fun time reading this and thankyou so much for writing!!^^
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Date: 2016-08-26 03:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-08-26 03:59 am (UTC)The characters were just so rich and weren't stereotypical, and even though kyungsoo denied it for a while we could feel the love through your writing. Ugh i loved it thank yiu so much for writing it!! It's definitely now one of may favorites~
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Date: 2016-08-26 04:01 am (UTC)It could have slipped into cliched territory but it didn't and I like that there were no antagonists. Just a slice of life where the story comes from circumstances.
Ugh the feels. And sesoo. So much love for supportive best friend Sehun. 10/10 would recommend.
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Date: 2016-08-26 04:34 am (UTC)And I just love love love how I'm the beginning it seemed like soo was gonna need the most protecting like in most stories, but I had a feeling with how reserved and calm Jongin was he will was gonna some sort of breakdown some time and then it came and soo helped him and I felt like crying, but then u went and changed the game even more, having soo take charge for a while, keeping Jongin anchored. And I love how near the end it balances out, showing that they both protect each other. and while I love stories that has one of them protecting the other and being their shield, finding a story that meshes both concepts together for a beautiful harmony of love it really is just so fresh and feel good. This might seem weird but honestly these stories inspire and teach me a lot about love, and it makes me so happy that there's people out there that feel this strongly about it. I wanna give the biggest hug to whoever wrote this :)))
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Date: 2016-08-26 05:10 am (UTC)i also died at the part when he got the kids all custom made beds !!!!!! like when will your man ever
this is so refreshing i loved all the characters (the kids were sooooo cute and also joohyun and seulgi !!! my baes) and the drama was nicely done, not too much but just enough to make me want to die
great job!!!
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Date: 2016-08-26 08:40 am (UTC)I CRIED LAUGHED AND I LIKE THEIR CHARACTERS SO MUCH. ALL CHARACTERS HERE.
i wish theres Jongin's pov fic tho.
i want to know how was jongin's feeling when the first time he saw kyungsoo and anything bout his feeling.
good job author.!!
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Date: 2016-08-26 02:10 pm (UTC)Firstly, I really like how you had Naeun and Taeil in the story especially with each of them attached to one of the kaisoo couple. I'd say the relationship that the couple has with the two kids is definitely the strongest/most impactful for me in this story other than Kaisoo themselves. I really like how Kyungsoo's has this soft spot for Naeun, it feels like despite all his fears for people leaving, Kyungsoo has unknowingly acknowledged Naeun as a permanent figure in his life? And ofc for Jongin it's seeing that he and Taeil had so much similarities.
I really enjoyed reading about how Kyungsoo was constantly trying to runnaway from his feelings or didn't want to acknowledge them although it was really painful to see him running away from Jongin /sobs angst/. It was very realistic and raw and it didn't seem rushed especially since Kyungsoo has the fesr of people leaving! I feel that this also juxtaposed how their environment affected them which is, Jongim growing up with a loving family wasn't as hestitant to accept such feelings as compared to Kyungsoo who constantly had people leaving him at different parts of his life.
Them finally getting together was really sweet though. Personally I really liked how you didn't have a specific scene of them being "official" so it was more like a combination of natural flow+common understanding from both sides that they're boyfriends and I think that really highlighted your point of how, even since young, verbal communication wasn't needed between the two of them to understand each other heheheh🙈. And gosh when Jongin bought all the kids their individual beds and Kyungsoo got all emotional, I was full out crying and the first thing that came to my mind was "How can Kyungsoo not love this kid who protected his home" Jongin really has been nothing short of sweet throughout this story. Both of yall deserve tons of cookies for that hehe.
I was honestly expecting the climax of the story to be about Jongin finding out Kyungsoo's reason for getting close to him but damn your plot twist of Jongin being adopted and them being bbfs since childhood is so so much better. You da champ💪💪💪I really like how the friendship they had when they were kids has a similar dynamic to the one they have when they're adults.
I also really liked how Kyungsoo got to witness a side of Jongin's anger issues(for the lack of better phrase;; ) and I feel that that particular incident was the one that really firmed up/binded(?) their relationship. Like I feel that it allowed Kyungsoo to see Jongin more whole-y as an individual. I really really love how the two of them actually balance out each other so so well. The chemistry/dynamics etc etc is amazing. You didn't make Jongin or Kyungsoo look weaker than the other and instead highlighted how they made each other stronger and personally, I feel that that's an aspect of love thats really difficult to achieve or even to write about. People tend to always make one party in the relationship stronger than the other in writings but yours wasn't like that. Instead of contrasting, their characters complimented.
And I really like the idea of how comfort was presented more often in physical forms than verbal form and how you showed that either forms isn't lesser than the other :)
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Date: 2016-08-26 02:11 pm (UTC)Jongin is as equally amazing no doubt. I think his backstory was a nice touch for his character and also good for us know that he isn't perfect (though he's pretty darn near to it heheheheh) and that nobody is at all. I was initially confused as to why Jongin accepted Kyungsoo's pressence so easily since he has so many who thinks of him as money but I understood it the moment Sehun mentioned about Jongin's drawing of him hehe.
All your side characters are extremely lovable and hilarious, totally amazing. For me, I'd say Soojin, Joohyun and Seulgi stood out more than SeBaekYeol seeing how the story revolves around the orphanage heh :)
Short spazz para: I really really love Jongin and Kyungsoo's character in the this story (Their characterization, backstory, EVERYTHING), I really really love Naeun and Taeil (my cute little angels) and I really really love the fluffy moments bc yours are those really small things that makes a person's day (and not full on cheese) and I really liked it.
This is hella long and everything is all over the place my gosh alot of it probably isn't even necessary I'm so sorry;;; But TL;DR, this story is beautiful in every humane way possible and has secured inself a special place in my heart because stories revolving on the topic of home are very special to me. You did a bombtastic job author. Thank you so so much. I feel utterly thankful for such a beautiful story!!💖💖💖
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Date: 2016-08-26 03:01 pm (UTC)The pacing was good for a fic this long and I didn't feel like it dragged. And I just oh man, when the reveals are done I am going to shower you with attention. ; u ;
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Date: 2016-08-26 03:10 pm (UTC)I guess the first thing I really want to touch on is their relationship itself. It's just so precious and I couldn't help smiling the entire time. The progress of it was PERFECT. They started off really really awkward (since both of them were so socially inept otl) and by the end they're both comfortable with each other. Even then it was still a rocky road, what with Kyungsoo having problems letting people in and all. You also did wonderful at making them both see different sides of each other. Like not only the good sides but the bad sides as well. Jongin's bad sides was easy for the reader to pick out since he started breaking everything after he got upset at his parents, but Kyungsoo's was a little more subtle since he was the center of the fic. His, to me, was when he got too spooked of how their relationship was going and tried to convince Jongin he didn't like him and always keeping everyone at arm's length. It was wonderful honestly and to me, to build a proper long lasting relationship with someone you need to see them at their worst as well as at their best and you really hit the nail on the head here whether you meant to or not ahaha. I also really really like how even at the end, they still didn't say I love you even though in their hearts they probably were already aware of that. Just. wow.
THE KIDS. OMG THE KIDSSSSSSS. Taeil is my absolute favorite and his admiration for Jongin warms my heart so much. I was sosososoo happy when Jongin mentioned to Kyungsoo that it would be wonderful for them to adopt them even if I knew they couldn't. In the future, if both naeun and taeil don't get adopted like Kyungsoo did, I could see Jongin taking them in and helping them (kyungsoo helping too ofc) along in life so they aren't alone through it all. Help them pay for college, get an apratment, clothes, food, all that. It warms my heart at the thought omg look what you've done to me. I'm a daydreaming mess now.
Baekhyun, Chanyeol, and Sehun were wonderful. Just the right amount of comic relief (especially with Baekhyun LOL) tbh. I really liked Sehun and Kyungsoo's relationship since Sehun tries really hard to care for Kyungsoo even if he doesn't want it LOL.
The plot twist in this fic was really great. Idk if I was just oblivious but I totally didn't see it coming. When Jongin came into work crying I was worried they were going to build another corporate building where the orphanage was or something. BUT NO. Honestly I also have to give you a high five for not going along that route and making Jongin's parents assholes. Like from their perspective, they were trying to protect Jongin (ofc they could have given money to help the kids or even move them and have them change their name or SOMETHING but i guess their only thought was on Jongin). Most of the time, in fics like these, authors will make parents like Jongin's out to be mean or nasty to those of lower status which isn't necessarily bad per say, but I like when there is a change every once and a while. The fact that the mother and father didn't blame Kyungsoo for Jongin finding out (even though he is kind of to blame in a way) and said it was fine. They were even nice to him as they were leaving Jongin's house liKE THANK YOU FOR THAT. When Jongin said his parents are kind hearted people I worried he was just kind of brainwashed (because who buys out an orphanage so they can close down jfc) but everything made sense in the end :>
So yeah. GREAT JOB. The fact that this is 69k makes me want to hug you because it is no easy feat but you did it! I can really see all of the time and effort you spent putting into this fic and all I can do is say thank you! This was a beautiful read and you just wrote it so wonderfully I can barely even think of something coherent to say at the moment ahaha. I have a sneaking suspicion of who you are, dear author, but I'm so bad at guess I'm just going to keep quiet ;A; Again, thank you sosososososo much for writing this. You're amazing.
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Date: 2016-08-26 03:42 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-08-26 05:01 pm (UTC)this caused me pHYSICAL PAIN. Like when soo brought jongin to his home I WAS IN PAIN DO U UNDERSTANDN WHEJAKJSAK. I had to clench my chest liKE MY HEART DROPPEDDD. I'm still shook fck I'm hurt I'm emotional don't look at me--
bUT WHY IS JONGIN SO SWEET TO TAEIL yoooo like if my man don't stroke my child's cheek like jongos did--if my man dONT HOLD MY BABY LIKE JONGIN IMMA BE SO UPSET @THE_WORLD.
and booootch I fokinnnn knew about jongins past since their first scene in the coffee room I kNEW IT and I screamed when I was right. Vibes man.
anyway this is prob all incomprehensible haha bUT FOR REAL THIS SO GOOD so good ;__;
THIS IS GOLD
Date: 2016-08-26 05:02 pm (UTC)I love the kind of chanbaekhun character like this one in every kaisoo fic.
i'm........
Date: 2016-08-26 06:02 pm (UTC)Well normally when I look at a fic's comments and see people rewrite the lines and such, I always thought like "Why are they repeating these, like it's already there how is this a comment..." and such and such.
It seems I was never affected by fics as those people did.. until this very one.
Each character was amaaaazing. Like omg Baekhyun for example,
But half of the office had to experience the horrible, horrible pain of getting their hearts broken by Jongin. I think one of the interns even wrote an entire handbook on how to get over him on her blog. Wait let me find it…”
This part got me wheezing and I had to stop for a while to get my shit together and actually continue reading. And also ohmaygad,
Sehun looks up from his computer and gives him an anxious look as he gets up from his desk and walks over to Kyungsoo’s. "Do we have to look for a new job?”
Sehun was the most dreamy bff ever and I totally want him as my bff now. Not a friend can love up to this imaginary level set by this imaginary character, this is how much i'm affected rn.
I don't even want to start with Kyungsoo and Jongin because then it's gonna be so long as it already is. T_T I'm so emo right now, thank you for your words, thank you for your imagination. I laughed, I cried, I didn't expect this ever. When the author's are revealed, I'll shower you with love however I can <3